Adam Loves You

God Loves You My Dear Friend, I would like to ask you a question: have you ever wondered how your life after death will be? Does life after death even exist? Do you feel that you are not really happy and you do not feel satisfaction in this life? Don’t you sometimes have a need to tell someone what you struggle with? If this is true about you – congratulations; you are at the point in your life where I began my new life. Throughout my whole life I used to think that I was the lord of my life and everything in my life depended on me. I used to think that I had to seize this life without any boundaries because we live in the here and now, and after that... nobody really knows, so I never thought about it. I had never cared about any religion. There were no moral standards for me. I lived only to satisfy my desires, and I did not care about anything or anybody. This kind of life led me to the edge, and there was no exit. Then I started to think about the meaning of this life, and because of this I started a new way of life by giving my life to the Lord. Now I am really happy, I have faith, hope, and love for people. I have compassion for other people, their poverty and suffering. Now, thanks to God’s grace and His love, I know what is the goal and sense of my life. If you would like to regain your life and become a truly free and happy person, please spend some time to read the story of my life. Please, believe that there is someone who loves you and is willing to help you. Think whether you are really happy, look inside your heart and answer honestly the following question: “Do I need a friend?” If your answer is “yes”, kneel down and say this to God; He will never leave you alone. Ps. 27:10 For my mother and my father have forsaken me but the Lord will take me up. Romans 5:8-10 But God demonstrates His love toward us , in that while we were yet sinners , Christ died for us. Much more then, having now ben justified by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him. For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more having been reconciled , we shall be saved by His life. John 3:16-17 For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but the world might be saved through Him. My Testimony My name is Adam, I am 51 years old. I live in Dabrowa Gornicza, an industrial city in Silesia. My life was full of surprises since early childhood… When I was 18 months old my father hung himself while serving in the army; he left my mom without any income or anything. To support us my mom worked very hard as for a woman – in a foundry. She worked extremely hard, 12-16 hours a day, even on Sundays, to support me and give me everything I needed, so that the loss of a father would not affect me too much. She did not realize that my father’s and her own absence was the cause of my rebellion. I was raised by my grandma, neighbors and aunts. They spoiled me, when I needed influence of strong men and discipline. I started to look for adventures which along with the lack of control of older people over me, resulted in me hanging out with the wrong people… When I was 13 I had my first black out from too much drinking. After that, I got worse very quickly: I started to drink and smoke more often, and because I was too young to work, I started stealing to impress my older colleagues. I did it very often and at the same time I began to get aggressive. With time it got worse and worse. The more I smoked and drank, the more money I would need, which led me to steal more. Together, my friends from the streets and I would beat innocent people out of boredom. This all led to a hardening of my heart and a loss of any feelings and love for others. Slowly, I became like an animal disguised in human flesh. Despite of this, my mom always stuck up for me because I could always convince her I was innocent. When I was 19 years old I got my first sentence for beating and mugging a man in Czechoslovakia. Because I was young and under alcohol influence, my sentence was suspended. This led me to further believe that I could do whatever I wanted because I would not get in trouble and it also doubled the level of my aggression. The absence of a father figure and lack of discipline was the cause of my rebellion and aggression. My lifestyle meant spending all of my time with wrong people from whom I could not learn anything that would allow me to have a normal life. I started to spend time with boxers and gypsies and I visited night clubs regularly. I hoped that all this would kill the emptiness inside me. I got married when I was 23 years old. My wife was a very good girl, and after one year our beautiful daughter was born. I had been hoping things would change. Even though I loved my daughter and my wife very much, I couldn’t change my nature or character and because of that I became worse and worse. I began to hate everyone and even began to hate myself. I was a completely different person than I wanted to be. Finally, because of my aggression, drunkenness and constant quarreling, my wife took our daughter and left. At this time, I was working in Czechoslovakia as a roofer. The same day that my wife left, I fell off a roof at 8 meters. As I was lying in that puddle of blood, I was positive I was going to die. For the first time in my life, something touched my cold stone of a heart. I had never believed in God and never needed him, so I did not know what was going on. I felt that I regretted the way I lived and I wanted to change my life. This happened 21 years ago. At that time I had cried to God from the bottom of my heart that I wanted to change. I felt a warm feeling around my heart and a desire to be different. I said “God! If you are there, please change me - please spare my life and I will give it to you. I want to be a good man!” I have no idea how I crawled, but I managed to find some people who drove me to the hospital and took care of me. The doctor said it was a miracle that taking into account the power of the fall, I did not have any internal injuries except for having my bones broken. When I got better, I returned to Poland only to learn that my wife had left me. I was furious, but on the other hand I knew I deserved it. I took turns, first drinking and then repenting. I was not going to any church and I did not know anything about God. Sometimes I prayed “My Guardian Angel…” because that is how I imagined God. My state was very bad at this time- I was looking for God everywhere but not where I should! Finally I found a mission named Chaitanii (a fraction of Hare Krishna) in Sosnowiec. I had been with them for a year, and I was a very diligent and eager student. Everyday I would pray 16 rounds of mantra. (which meant 16 X 109=1728 prayers every day). Also, I spent two hours in the worship service everyday. This did not allow me to focus on anything but the idol Krishna, who was my god at this time. In addition to that, to be obedient to Krishna I had to be a vegan: I did not eat meat, fish, eggs, chocolate, coffee, or tea. I also believed in reincarnation. After one year, I really was a new man. Everywhere I looked I saw goodness and love, but still my heart was empty and dissatisfied because in this cult something was missing. This something, I now know, was the Holy Spirit. I left this mission after a year, and tried to practise my faith by myself. I went to a Catholic church, I sang mantras very quietly, I prayed on a rosary, confessed sins to myself, and took communion from the priest. Everything I knew I mixed together. Because of that, I got lost, and started drinking again. I was praying and drinking and swearing at everyone around me. But still in my heart there was a longing for God and I was afraid of God because of the promise I made Him after my fall off the roof, that I did not keep. Because I was afraid I kept looking for Him. During this difficult time, I got another sentence for theft, and once again I was let go. Then I started praying more and looking for God. This time, I found the Mormons. I had been with them for half a year and had been reading their book. I liked them, but all their prophecies and revelations seemed no more than just a tale to me. One day they told me that if I wanted to understand everything, I would have to ask God to reveal it to me through the Holy Spirit. Because of that, after six years of looking I started to cry to God (because of the Mormons). He brought me unto my believing brother-in-law. During a Mormon meeting in my house, he told me about Jesus and showed me that there is only one God. I told the Mormons to leave, and once they left I knelt down and sincerely gave my life to Jesus. He became my Savior. I sincerely accepted Him, but said to God that I will still not believe if He does not give me faith himself. I started to attend church worship services and started reading the Bible enthusiastically. I do not even know when exactly I stopped smoking and drinking, but everything in Scripture was so easy to understand, so true that I began to attend all the meetings in my neighborhood. After about 4 months, I was baptized. My life was full of Christ and my heart full of love and compassion. I stopped watching inappropriate TV shows and movies full of aggression. Swearing now hurt my ears and violence forced tears from my eyes! Everywhere I went, I would talk about God. People who knew me, would think that I was crazy but I knew that this was finally IT, what I was looking for. I knew this because the hole in my heart was full and I had love for others without expecting something in return. My life now had sense and was colorful. There was no hatred, bitterness, mischievousness, anger, or desire. It was all replaced with faith, love, and hope. My life had been very complicated, and I hurt a lot of people along the way which I really regretted. I lost my family and home. Because of my foolishness, I lost it all. And then, when I had hit rock bottom, “Amazing Grace saved the wretch like me”, and God’s love melted my heart of stone. Now I am a member of the evangelical church, and I work in a foundry, honestly earning my living. In my church I serve in the addiction ministry. In the past I could not walk down a street without beating or stealing from someone, but now I collect the tithe in my church and give every penny to the treasurer and smile to everyone! In the past, I hated the weak, the sick and the elderly, but now I pray for the sick, love the children, the elderly and those who are weaker than me, because I can help them. In the past, I was afraid of the police and avoided them, now I even evangelize in jails! In the past, I drank alcohol but now I give people wine during communion and now I joyfully dance, but for the Lord. In the past I was a man who talked others into sinning and drinking, but now I help people understand that it is a sin, and help them leave the addiction. In the past, I never had money, and always was lacking. Now, I have enough and even too much because I am content with what I have and I thank God for that. All of this is because there is Someone who loves me. Someone who cares about me! Someone who put me close to His heart and gave me His helping hand when no one believed in me! It is Jesus Christ! He changed my life and He transformed me into a new man. He allowed me to experience true love and joy. Now that I know the Bible, I know that I can do everything, but not everything is beneficial for me. I can discern between right and wrong. I also know that everyone has the same chance, God does not look at the person. He died for everyone who acknowledges Him as Lord and Savior. He holds out His hand for every sinner, you just have to come to Him and give Him your life and He will free you from all suffering and cleanse you from all sin. If you are reading this story today, this means that God is knocking on your heart as well to give you what you are looking for. Trust Him and believe that if I could get His love then you can, too. He will change your life and make you happy. He is waiting for your answer, so do not harden your heart anymore, like the bad man on the cross. I am benefiting from God’s forgiveness and now I am His child. Seven of my friends have died from drinking, three of them were killed, and most are in jail – and if they are not there yet they soon will be – if they do not acknowledge God’s grace. And I am alive! Maybe just because I am supposed to tell you how great and awesome God is! If He is not your Lord, kneel down and invite Him into your heart and ask Him to accept you as His child. He gave the sinner on the cross another chance and He will give you one as well and wipe all your tears. Trust Him, give Him your life, and He will bless you – take advantage of the time of grace. Jesus said: Rev. 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and I will dine with him, and he with Me. John 8:36 So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed. Genesis 28:15 Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring ypu back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I promised you Numbers. 6:24-26 The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord makes His face shine on you, and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance on you, and give you peace. Remember, as long as you live, there is still time to cry to Jesus but you never know how much time you still have; don’t delay. Adam from Dabrowa Gornicza, Poland